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i know your done

i know you've quit,

but before you drop the knife and pick up the gun

hear my words, hear my voice

before you make your choice

hear me out

look into my face now

hear my words don't just nod your head

i know you have messed up

and the police are comeing to get you

i know that your going to go away for awhile

but please don't do this

remember when i was five 

and you were in the bathroom committing suicide

then the police came and broke down the bathroom door

you yelled and cut yourself more

then they took it away from you

the thing that was your only way to be heard

if only you had known

the things that would follow

you go away for months at a time

every time you came around mom acted like she was fine

even though she blamed herself for everything

she still blames herself  now

she blames herself for you about to go to jail for 12 years

if only you could tell her

tell her it's not her fault

that you got drunk

that you got in a car accident

that you almost killed three people

that your the reason your going to jail

and that she tried

you just wouldn't listen

by the way the reason I remember you committing suicide

is i watched all happen

i was under the counter crying

and i felt the pain in my heart watching you slowly dieing

the words unspoken are the ones that need to be heard

these words will take you to your grave

you ask me why you shouldn't have done what you have done

simply for me

you should have done it for me

so i wouldn't have had to watch mom cry

watch you go to jail

watch mess up your life

even worse

mess up the life of a young inoccent kid

who will now never meet his father

you shouldn't of done it for all those reasons

here's the police

right on time

but before you go give me the gun

now add one more reason why you should not have done what you did

( silence for a couple seconds while the police get ready t come in.)

( i take the gun which i place upon my head)

i say goodbye

(sound of a gun shot)

then the shrill utter cry of a person who just lost everything

( the police shocked into silence by what they have just witnessed)

the only sounds are the ones from which utter from my brother

who is now holding my dead body